Memorial of St. John
of the Cross, priest and doctor of the Church
(Numbers 24:2-7.15-17a; Matthew 21:23-27)
The man was troubled.
He was a committed Catholic but was having a hard time believing what
the Church teaches. He wondered whether
he was undergoing a “dark night of the soul.”
That term was formulated by today’s patron, St. John of
the Cross. It means that one experiences
dryness in belief. Truths are accepted
but only by force of will. The person feels
no joy in believing in her eternal destiny.
Perhaps John himself experienced this anguish as he was harassed for
calling his brother Carmelites to reform.
Some think that Jesus himself experienced a dark night as
he hung upon the cross. For this reason
he may have cried, “My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?” It is such a disturbing possibility that Luke
and John view Jesus’ death quite differently.
They see allies at his side and an overarching trust in God as his
demeanor.
We too may experience a dark night. We may view the gospel as idealism and God as
a projection. We would be in good
company. But it is not a state that we
should pursue. Rather we should pray that
the Advent hope of seeing Jesus will remain in our hearts until it is realized.
